Gratitude

i am so grateful for my Wife, my Queen, my Owner!!  She truly does own me!!  i would do absolutely anything She wants me to do.  i may not like it, or want to do whatever it might be, but i would obey her wishes.  It's called obedience.

i love obeying my Queen's wishes!  When i obey, it pleases Her and she smiles.  i LOVE seeing Her smile!!

i've heard of some slaves who deliberately disobey just to face the consequences and be punished.  Personally, i do not like to be punished.  i would rather see my Queen happy with my behaviour than to displease Her and force Her to punish me.

However, just because i dislike being punished, does not mean that i dislike pain.  i am quite the masochist, and enjoy taking the pain my Queen dishes out.  She has a wonderful, nasty, sadistic side, and loves to see me submit to excruciating pain.  She also gets off on requiring me to look her in the eye as she is giving me pain, as She likes to "see the pain" in my eyes.

She knows i will never use the safe word, as i am too proud to do that.  In fact, i recently asked Her if we could dispense with the safeword option, as i trust Her completely, and since She truly owns me, She can do with me as She pleases anyway.

i know... Safe, Sane, and Consensual...  but She is my Wife, and i know that She loves me completely and would never do anything to cause me permanent harm.  Extreme pain, agony and suffering...yes, but permanent harm...no.

Speaking of suffering,  with the long Labor Day weekend coming up, my Queen has been wanting to get in some outdoor play, deep in the woods.  i have a feeling i may be suffering for her pleasure in the mountains this weekend!  😁

Marked as Her property & slave

One of the things i LOVE about my Wife and Queen is that She has me marked in multiple ways as her slave/husband and property.  We both get off on it, and since i enjoy a bit of humiliation, my markings offer plenty of opportunities to experience that.

Of course, my wedding ring is the first and most obvious symbol of my love and commitment to my beautiful wife, but i also wear a nice, masculine, silver chain bracelet on my right wrist that serves as my everyday collar.  i wear it 24/7 and it is a constant symbol and reminder that i am owned by Her.

i also wear a black leather and silver chain bracelet on my left ankle.  This is a more private symbol that is for Her viewing pleasure when i am naked at home.

Although, i do wear it 24/7, for the most part, it is usually hidden from public view by my socks if i wear shorts and tennis shoes, or by the leg of my jeans if i wear flip flops. We live in a fairly small town, so running into friends and family whenever we are out and about is a regular occurrence.  i am thankful that my Queen has not required that i wear it with shorts and flip flops, although, the thought of Her making me do that is kind of exciting from a humiliation standpoint.  Maybe sometime when we go out of town where we don't know so many people...  🙂

i love all these subtle ways my Queen has me marked, but the one that love the most is that She has permanently marked me on my ass with a tattoo that labels me as Her slave and property.

i absolutely LOVE being marked in this way, and we get quite a few comments from others when we play at BDSM dungeon play parties!  Of course, i love the humiliation aspect of it, and being objectified in this way!!

I also have fantasies of actually being "branded" in some way by my Queen, but after doing some research, i am finding out that there are a lot of things to consider before doing this.  Safety and healing are two of them, but also doing it in a way that the scar is readable, and doesn't end up being an indecipherable blob of scar tissue is another issue.  i need to do some more research on this, and maybe talk to some others who have been branded, to learn from their experiences.

But, the thing that has me so excited, and prompted me to write about the ways that my Queen has marked me as Her slave, is something she told me last night.  i was sitting on the floor in front of Her as she relaxed in Her recliner, and i was massaging Her feet with lotion.   She asked me about something i had revealed to Her recently about a fantasy i have of having a collar permanently placed around my neck.  Several years go, i had read in a book about a similar scenario where a slave girl's Master had fitted her neck with a chain collar and had the ends permanently soldered together so that it was impossible for her to remove it, other than cutting it off.  This idea really excited me, and i have fantasized about it for years!  Anyway, my Queen asked me if i was serious about wanting Her to do that to me.  YES!!!  ABSOLUTELY!!!!   PLEASE and THANK YOU, my QUEEN!!!!!  😁  She told me the thought turned Her on too, and She would be seeing about making the arrangements to make it happen!!  😁❤

Naked male, Clothed Female

i found this picture on tumbler,  and it SO represents something that turns me on tremendously!!  i LOVE being totally naked while my beautiful wife and Queen is fully clothed, or wearing a night gown or lingerie!  i love that feeling of vulnerability i get whenever i am naked.  In our slavery contract it states that i am to be naked whenever i am at home, unless directed otherwise by my Queen.   i LOVE that!!! 

I also LOVE that my Queen loves for me to be naked, and expects it!  When we get home from being somewhere together, the first thing i usually do is strip.  She has told me, repeatedly that she loves that, and enjoys having a naked man running around the house. 

Occasionally,  i will sit, naked, on the floor at my Queen's feet and kiss them, or massage them with lotion.  i would do this every night, but we have wood floors, and my boney ass and legs can't take too much of that.  Maybe one day soon, we can get me large doggy bed to sit on...

So grateful for my beautiful Wife & Queen

i am SO grateful my beautiful Wife & Queen

Ever since i was a young boy, i have had thoughts and fantasies of being captured, held prisoner, kept naked in chains or in a cage, used for domestic, as well as sexual purposes etc.  I always knew there was someone out there who i belonged to...someone who would fill this empty gap that i felt inside.  i have spent my entire adult life searching for this person. 

After a 34 year marriage, and multiple brief relationships after, i finally found my dream girl...my soulmate!!  She "gets" me!  She understands my need to submit and to be owned.  i truly believe that we have lived many lifetimes together.  We were destined to meet again in this lifetime, and that's why i always felt that yearning...that gnawing deep inside of me that something was missing in my life.  i now know, it was Her that i was yearning for!

THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!!!! 

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