Anal Training and a Smaller Cage???

Being fucked in the ass is something i never thought i'd want to do.  i just never had any fantasies or thoughts about it, but my Queen, on the other hand, DID always have thoughts about fucking guys in the ass and actually raping them.  She kept telling me She was going to buy a strapon and use it on me.   I wasn't too thrilled at the idea, but She is the boss and i must do as She wishes.

We bought Her a strapon and a "beginner size" cock (thankfully) and had our first anal session about a year ago.  The first time or two i HATED it!!  It was painful and left me sore for days afterward.  Of course,  my Queen, being the Sadist that She is, LOVED it! The more agony i was in, the harder She would thrust, and the more She came! 

Over the past year, i have grown to tolerate it, and even enjoy it to the point of craving it.  She has even increased the cock size and i have begun to enjoy being Her anal bitch.  i LOVE the humiliation aspect of it, most of all!  She ties me up to the bed, my ass exposed, and grabs my hair as She, literally, rapes me.  Yes, it still hurts, but i am a masochist, after all.  😉

Lately, i've been having fantasies of being trained to accept a larger cock.  The thought of my Queen requiring me to wear increasingly larger butt plugs for extended periods on a regular basis, really turns me on!  Also, my Queen has mentioned a few times that i have too much room in my cock cage when i'm flaccid,  thus allowing me to grow some when i try to get an erection.  She said we might have to get a smaller cage to keep me properly frustrated, and submissive.  i remember this pic (below) i saw on Tumbler, and thought how awesome it was.  I know i should be careful what i wish for, but i can't help it... 

Happy Thanksgiving, my Queen!

Today is Thanksgiving Day, and i truly have SO much for which to be thankful!  But i believe, without a doubt, that i am MOST thankful for my wonderful and beautiful Wife and Queen!!  All my adult life i have hoped, dreamed and prayed for a relationship and marriage like what we now have!  Even after two years of our wonderful wife-led marriage, i feel like i am in heaven as we delve deeper into my submission and slavery to Her, and Her Dominance and total ownership of me.  It has been the most wonderful and exciting journey, and i can't wait to see and experience what lies just over the next hill, or around the next bend along our twisted and kinky pathway!

Happy Thanksgiving!!  i LOVE and ADORE YOU, my QUEEN!!!!! ❤⛓🔒🗝❤😘😘

Objectified, and Loving It!

my beautiful Queen knows how much i love being objectified, and She loves objectifying me!  We are definitely made for each other in that regard!  i guess for me, it is the humiliation aspect of it that makes it so hot.  I LOVE a certain amount of humiliation, and i believe my Queen likes the fact that She can humiliate me, especially in front of others, and exercise Her Dominance and Ownership of me.  i LOVE THAT!!!  i LOVE it when She does or says certain things that give others a hint that She is the Boss of our marriage.

Tonight, a female friend of ours came over for dinner and to visit.  my Queen and her have become very close, and have had many conversations regarding our relationship and sex life.  Although i don't believe my Queen has told our friend directly about our FLR, or about my being my Wife's slave, i'm sure she has figured out a good part of it on her own.  And, from comments she has made, i believe she is pretty open to our brand of kink.

Anyway, whenever we are around our friend, my Queen enjoys making comments about me... about how good looking or sexy i am, how good our sex life is, or about how fortunate She is that i am Her husband.  Although it is somewhat humiliating for me to be objectified in this way, it really is flattering, and i do love it!  i am the fortunate one to be loved and appreciated so much by my beautiful Wife!

At one point during the evening the conversation came up about nipple piercings.   Our friend knows that mine are pierced, as my wife had shown her pictures.  As we were talking, i half expected my Queen to tell me to raise my shirt and show our friend the real thing, up close and personal!  But She chose not to for Her own reasons, and i respect that.  i especially love it, though, when my Queen bosses me around in front of our friend.  i also love being able to serve my Queen, in a vanilla way, by doing things like clearing the dishes from the table and helping out in other ways that demonstrate my love, devotion and submission to my Wife.  It turns me on to be able to perform my domestic slave duties, even though i'm doing them in a vanilla-appearing manner.  And having my Queen or our friend comment on it, adds even more to the excitement!  i don't know where all of this may lead, or how far it may go with our friend.  That decision is entirely up to my Wife and Queen.  She knows that i will do anything She asks or orders me to do.  She rules...i obey.

There are many more ways and possible scenarios for my Queen to use in objectifying me.  But those will have to wait for another post.  i am so grateful for my Queen and that She has enslaved me and taken complete and permanent ownership of me!!  She is my dream Girl!!!  ❤❤⛓🔒🗝❤❤

She Deserves It

Last night a Female friend of ours was visiting, and the subject of conversation worked its way around to a discussion about previous marriages and relationships.  my Wife mentioned that in none of Her previous relationships was She allowed to just be Her, and express Her unique personality. She said that She love the fact that in our relationship, She can truly BE Herself!

When we first started dating almost two and a half years ago, i told Her that i wanted to love and pamper Her, and treat Her like a Queen for the rest of Her life.  That is still my main focus.  She DESERVES to be loved, pampered, worshipped  and treated like a Queen!

i LOVE treating Her like a Queen!!  She IS my Queen!!  All my life, i have felt this need to serve a strong, Dominant Female, and i have found the one i was looking for in my Wife.

She admits that She can be bossy and likes to have things done Her own way.  i appreciate that about Her, and i love submitting to Her will.  Our Female-led relationship is so natural!  She leads, i follow.  She makes the rules, i obey.  Yes, She DESERVES to be appreciated and worshipped.  She is my Queen!!!  ❤

Thank You, my Queen!

As i lie here in our bed this morning and look at You sleeping, so beautiful and sexy, i am SO thankful for You!!  Thank You for finding me, and marrying me!  Thank You for enslaving me!  Thank You for caging my cock and keeping me locked in chastity!  Thank You for proudly wearing the key to my chastity cage on your necklace for all to see!  Thank You for requiring me to be naked when we are at home!  Thank you for using me as a service slave to make every aspect of Your life easier!  Thank You for using me as your sex slave to keep You satisfied, sexually!  Thank you for using me to satisfy all of Your sadistic desires!  Thank you for giving me tasks to complete for You!  Thank You for being my Dream Girl!  Thank You for owning me!!

i LOVE YOU, my QUEEN!!!  ❤❤⛓🔒❤❤

Foot slave

i LOVE my Queen's sexy feet, and i am so grateful that She loves my foot fetish, and loves that i love to worship and pamper Her feet! 

Last night, we got home late from work, and went to bed fairly soon.  When i came in our bedroom, my beautiful Queen was lying on Her stomach on top of the covers, looking SO hot and sexy!!  Her feet were up in the air, looking SO hot and sexy, i couldn't resist crawling up onto our bed and kissing them.  I kissed the sole on Her left foot all over before giving in to the uncontrollable urge to lick.  As i began licking, She moaned how good it felt which spurred me on to more vigorous licking of Her sole and in between Her toes.  It wasn't long before She was cumming with a toe-curling orgasm! 

After letting her recover for a few minutes while i massaged Her calves, i began kissing and licking the sole of Her right foot.  Oh, how i LOVE the taste of Her feet!!!  Soon She was having another intense orgasm, just from me licking and kissing the soles of Her feet!!  i LOVE this Woman SO, SO, MUCH!!! 

After She recovered from Her second orgasm,  i gently massaged lotion into each foot, and massaged her calves before crawling into bed with Her.  She layed Her head on my chest, as She does every night, and soon we drifted off to sleep.

i love and adore my Wife's feet, and i am SO thankful that She allows me to be Her foot slave!! ❤👣❤

i'm Really One Sick Puppy...

i LOVE when my Queen tortures my nipples.  i really get off on the pain She is giving me, and i actually crave it!  She gets off on it too, and in fact, She, more often than not, cums while watching me suffer for Her.  We are the perfect match! ❤❤

A few years ago, i ran across a porn video online of a Dom who actually nailed his female sub's nipples to a wooden table top.  As sick and twisted as it was, it really turned me on!  Being the masochist that i am, i begin to fantasize about it being done to me, and would visualize a scenario where my Domme would create this scene at a BDSM club or play party.  i would envision myself kneeling in front of a table or wooden saw horse with my hands tied behind my back.  A crowd of people gathered around to watch as my Domme ties strings to my nipple rings and stretches my nipples tight across a board, exposing them...holding them in place where She would drive the nails through them just behind my piercings, and into the two foot long two-by-four.  She would have another Domme stand behind me, firmly grasping my head by the hair, to help keep me still.  Afterward, my Domme would lead me around the dungeon...the board hanging from my nipples...stopping to chat with others as they look and comment on what they are seeing.

Up until now, i have kept this fantasy buried deep in my mind, never mentioning it to anyone...always fearing to reveal the sick and twisted things that go on in my head.  But, since meeting my Queen, and becoming Her slave husband, i finally have someone sadistic enough, who is actually turned on by my mssochistic fantasies and desires.  i LOVE knowing i can reveal ANYTHING to Her without fear of rejection or ridicule.

Whether we ever make this fantasy become a reality is entirely up to Her.  She OWNS me, completely, and if it turns Her on, and if She wants to nail my nipples to a board, then She has the right to do it.  i am Hers to do with as She pleases.  But it is such a relief, being able to express these thoughts and fantasies to my Queen who actually loves that i am one sick puppy!  ❤⛓🔒❤

Last Day of Locktober. Now NOvember?

Today is October 31st, Halloween, and the last day of Locktober.  Our original intent in participating in Locktober was for my Queen to keep me locked in my chastity cage 24/7, for the entire month, and deny me orgasms as well.  We managed to do that for the first couple of weeks.  However, because of the design of my chastity cage, with the hinge in the cock ring constantly digging into the underside of my scrotum, i developed a sore there, and My Queen released me for a weekend to let it heal.  She also allowed me to masturbate for Her that weekend, and made me lick up all of my cum.  She hadn't allowed me to cum for a few months before that, so there was a LOT built up in there!

Ever since then, She has been unlocking me almost every night before we go to bed, and re-locking each morning.  This past weekend, She allowed me to be unlocked the entire weekend, as She and i were together the whole time.  Also, yesterday was a snow day, and i got the day off work, so my Queen left me unlocked the entire day and all night.  This works well for us.  i get some relief from the pain of the cock ring every night, but when my Queen and i are not physically together, i am still locked for Her.

The last couple of days we have had our grandson staying with us, so a lot of our usual routines and protocols have been suspended.  i really miss them!!!  Yesterday, being home all day with my Queen, i was SO horny!!!  My nipples were actually aching for Her to abuse them!  my nipples are pierced, and She really gets off on abusing my nipples and keeping them sore.  This  pic is of me with my stirrup piercings.

 Sometimes when we are lying in bed, She will pinch and twist my nipples so hard that i am begging Her for mercy, and She will cum from seeing me in so much agony!  i LOVE that!!  She REALLY has a sadistic side when She can cum with no physical stimulation, but just by the act of inflicting pain on me.

Her sadistic side used to scare me a little when we were first dating, but at the same time, it excited me!  i realized that She was the real deal.  i craved a woman who would actually get extreme pleasure from making me suffer, and She was that woman!  i NEED that!  i told Her i loved that, but the only thing i asked, was that She keep me tightly restrained and gagged.  Tightly restrained for Her safety, as i get angry and raving mad because of the pain sometimes, and my first and only instinct is to fight back.  Gagged because i need to be able to scream out without worrying about the whole neighborhood hearing it.

my Queen has warned me that over time the pain and suffering She inflicts upon me will get worse.  She pushes my limits all the time, and i welcome that!  This is one of the reasons that our weekend of hell fantasy is so appealing to both of us.  It will be an opportunity to really experience S&m in the most true form.  She can live out Her nastiest sadistic fantasies and i can live out my sickest masochistic fantasies.  We both need this!!

my Queen bought me a new gag recently, a leather bit-gag, but we haven't had the opportunity to try it out yet.  I've been seeing some penis gags on Tumbler, which look interesting too.  Being gagged with Her dirty panties and socks is a huge turn on for me.  Maybe someday She will pee in Her panties, and then stuff them in my mouth and gag me with them... 😉😁❤

So now that Locktober has come to a close, will we be participating in NOvember?  Yes, i believe we will.  We will be participating at the level that works for us.  Will i be allowed to cum during NOvember? That, is entirely up to my Queen.   😊❤⛓🔒❤

i Am The Luckiest man In The World!!

i am the luckiest, most fortunate,  blessed man in the world, to be married to my beautiful, sexy Wife and Queen!!  i have needed Her and searched for Her my entire adult life!  And, She tells me that She has done the same for me.  😊❤❤

One of the countless reasons i am so grateful for Her is because of the way She has embraced this FemDom lifestyle.   She tells me that, throughout Her life, She always had thoughts and fantasies along these lines, but was never able to act on any of them for various reasons.  She said She was always the bossy one, growing up, who liked getting Her own way, and having things done the way She wanted them to be done, but She was never able to carry that bossiness into the bedroom...until now.  She says i have brought that out in Her, allowing Her to BE Herself.  And, in turn, She has allowed me to BE myself as well!

i have always yearned for someone who would take control of our relationship...take initiative in the bedroom...be the boss...use me for Her pleasure and allow me to make HER life easier.  i LOVE when She says things like, "slave!  I need my coffee warmed up." Or, "slave!  I can't reach my reading glasses." when they are on the table by Her recliner, just out of reach from Her comfortable, reclined position.  i LIVE for the opportunity to serve Her needs in this way!

Last night, we were relaxing in the livingroom,  my Queen in Her recliner, reading... me lying, naked on the couch, as She likes me to do so She can look at Her property.  She got up to use the restroom and when She returned, She was holding Her favorite rawhide, knotted flogger.  She said, "slave!  On the floor between my legs!", as She seated Herself on the front edge of Her recliner.  i licked Her to one or two orgasms, and then She ordered me into the bedroom to continue with our fun.  That knotted flogger really HURTS, and She really gets off on the pain She inflicts as She beats my back with it!  The closer She gets to cumming, the harder and faster She hits me!  It is VERY intense!!

i licked Her to several more orgasms (i lost count) before She said "I'm done with you." And we returned to our places in the living room.  I LOVE things like this!!!

This morning, She woke up to use the restroom, and i was already awake.  When She returned, i felt my pillow being jerked out from under my head as She straddled my face.  "Lick off My pee!" She said. "I didn't wipe in the bathroom...your tongue is better than toilet paper!"  Oh, how i LOVED that!!  She took delight in rubbing Her pussy all over my face as i lapped up every drop of Her pee!  Then, i continued licking, quickly bringing Her to a couple of orgasms, as i reached up and played with Her nipples.

Afterwards, as we were spooning under the covers, she began playing with one of Her nipples, and i, the other.  Soon, She was cumming again, and shortly thereafter,  again!  She rolled over and played with mine, teasingly,  but stopping short of allowing me to cum.  i LOVE how Her keeping me denied and locked, makes me so much more submissive.  i would do anything for Her!!

Yes, i truly AM the luckiest man and slave in the world!!!  Thank You, my Queen, for taking complete ownership of me and using me for Your pleasure.  my pleasure comes from pleasing You!!!

Consensual Slavery Contract

Over the weekend, my Queen and i finally signed our D/s contract, officially making me Her owned slave and property.  In my last blog post, i promised, after obtaining  my Queen's permission, to post a copy of our contract here for all to read.  Please feel free to copy or use any or all of it as your own.

Consensual Slavery Contract

This contract of consensual slavery between _____________________, hereinafter referred to as “slave” and ________________, hereinafter referred to as “Queen”, is, and will be in effect for an unlimited time, as long as both parties continue to honor the contract.  This contract may be amended at any time by the agreement of, and by being signed by both parties.


slave’s Role

slave wishes to be owned by his Queen, completely, as Her property and agrees to love, honor, serve and obey his Queen, at all times, on a 24/7 basis.  slave agrees to give total control to his Queen in all decisions and situations as She may choose. slave agrees to make himself available to be used in any manner chosen by his Queen, whether sexual or domestic, at all times, when not at work or engaged in other non-scene activities as granted by his Queen.  The slave agrees to be bound, restrained and/or otherwise held captive by his Queen as She wishes, and for as long as She may choose. slave agrees that his Queen may, at Her discretion, choose to include others in scene related activities.


Queen’s Role

The Queen wishes to own Her slave, completely, as Her property on a 24/7 basis, and agrees to love and respect Her slave, and honor slave’s written hard limits.  The queen has the right to use Her slave for any purpose or activity, whether sexual or domestic, at any time She may choose. The Queen has the right to punish, tease, torment or torture Her slave for any reason She chooses, even if only for the sole purpose of Her entertainment or sexual satisfaction.  The Queen has the right to mark Her slave’s body in any way she chooses, either temporarily, or permanently.

The Queen agrees to engage in aftercare as appropriate after each scene or activity to ensure the emotional and physical well-being of Her slave.

The Queen may, at Her discretion, choose to include others in scene related activities, but agrees to monitor or supervise those activities to ensure the safety and well-being of Her slave.


Protocol

When in private, or out of the hearing range of others, slave will address his Queen as “my Queen”.  In public, or around non-scene friends and family, slave may address the Queen as “my Love”, or “Sweetheart”.

When in private, the Queen will address Her slave as “slave”, or any other name or term She chooses.   When in public, the Queen may address Her slave by his first name, or any other name she chooses as appropriate for the situation.

When in private, or in a scene situation, Queen and slave will assume their natural roles as Dominant Queen and slave, and all protocols will be in effect

When in public, or any non-scene situation, Queen and slave will act as if in a regular, vanilla relationship, although slave will always defer to his Queen.

slave will be required to be naked at all times when in private, unless directed otherwise by his Queen.

The Queen has the right to require Her slave to dress in a manner that is pleasing to Her at all times, whether in private, or in public.

slave will be required to wear his collar at any time as directed by the Queen. Upon those times, slave will kneel and present his collar to his Queen and place his hands behind his back while being collared by his Queen.  slave will also be required to wear jewelry or other symbols that represent his slave status as directed by his Queen.

slave is always required to be locked in his chastity cage, especially when not in the physical presence of his Queen, unless permission is granted otherwise by his Queen for special situations.  If allowed to be uncaged for the night by his Queen, slave will always present himself in an appropriate manner each morning for his Queen to attach the padlock to the chastity cage. His Queen will always keep the key with Her, on Her physical body, and may choose to wear it openly to indicate to others that Her slave is locked in chastity.

slave will be required to perform housework and other domestic tasks as directed by his Queen and may also be required to perform these tasks while naked, in chains or other restraints, or while dressed in any manner as his Queen may choose.

slave will be required to perform personal care duties such as massages, pedicures and foot rubs at any time as directed by his Queen.

slave acknowledges that his Queen will require him to perform tasks which may be unpleasant to Her slave, including tasks that may be humiliating to Her slave, either in private or in public.

Slave has requested of his own will that the use of safe-words be suspended, as he totally trusts his Queen’s judgement on the severity and duration of any activity in which She may wish to engage.

 This contract is signed on __________________________________


By ________________________________ – Queen


By ________________________________ - slave

Under Contract

We finally did it!!  my Queen and i finally finished creating our D/s Contract and signed it yesterday.  We have been working on creating this document for most of the two and a half years that have passed since we first met.  We wanted to create the perfect document for "us", and since our marriage and D/s relationship has grown and has been evolving constantly, our contract has been a continuous work-in-progress.  We realize that our relationship will always be evolving, and this document will need to be amended from time to time, but it is a good start, and will serve as a wonderful guide and reminder of the fundamental workings of our Wife-led marriage (WLM).

As with any D/s contract, there is nothing that is legally binding, or that would hold up in a court of law.  However, it is an agreement that we have made with each other to govern the dynamics of our WLM.  The contract will remain in effect indefinitely as long as we both continue to honor it.

After obtaining my Queen's permission, i plan to post a copy of our contract here.  i am very pleased with the wording and simplicity of the whole document.  i believe it is a perfect representation of the dynamics and ideals of our WLM, and communicates, specifically, the rights and roles pertaining to each other, and clears up any vagueness or assumptions about protocol or any circumstance or situation that may occur.  Up to this point, we have only been guided by our verbal agreement, so it is wonderful to finally have something in writing that we both agree to, 100%, and have indicated so by enthusiastically signing our names to the document in total commitment.

A Weekend of Hell

Lately, i have been thinking a lot about a fantasy i have held for a long time.  my Queen and i have discussed this fantasy in depth, and i being the masochist that i am, and She being the wonderful sadist that She is, we become VERY turned on by it!  Basically, it is about me being held captive as Her prisoner for an entire weekend, and being subjected to constant pain, humiliation and torture throughout the duration of my captivity.

We have a spare bedroom in our home that we are planning on converting into a dungeon/playroom which would be a perfect place to make this fantasy a reality.  Or, we have even discussed renting a secluded cabin in the mountains with a suitable bedroom, basement, or garage that could be converted into a temporary dungeon.  At any rate, She could choose to invite some of our scene friends to participate, which would add an element of surprise and offer variety to the ordeal i must undergo.

So my fantasy begins on a Friday evening after work  and ends on Sunday evening.  My Queen has me write and sign a contract that serves as our agreement that i give my consent to anything that may happen to me for the duration of my imprisonment.  This includes anything short of permanent injury requiring medical attention.  If She allows others to participate, She will supervise to ensure my safety.  The contract also states that my imprisonment and associated torture will be for a 48 hour duration, and any request or demand made by me to end it sooner will be denied.  i, for some reason, NEED to experience this, and i need it to be REAL!!  i don't want to be able stop it or control anything about it.

So, here is what i am envisioning, and of course, my Queen will have complete control over how this all plays out, and what of this She will use in Her actual scene, if any of it.   Except for my cock cage, i am kept completely naked for the entire time of my imprisonment.  Unless my Queen releases me to accommodate some activity that would require it, i am chained by the neck to an anchor in the floor or wall that is short enough to keep me from being able to even sit upright on the floor.   For the most part, i must remain lying down, or on my hands and knees.  My meals, must be eaten from a dog dish, and my hands will be cuffed behind me or otherwise restrained to make eating difficult.

My food will consist of table scraps or other unpleasant but not unhealthy choices made by my Queen.  My only drink is water i must drink from a dog bowl that My Queen often refills with Her pee.  For my bathroom needs, i am given a chamber pot for a limited time at various intervals throughout the day and night.

my Queen will visit me at times of Her choosing to use me for Her sadistic pleasure.  These visits may include sexual activities with Her and/or others, but always will include some kind of pain, humiliation, or torture for me to endure.  I will dread to hear Her enter the room, as i know Her visit will involve more pain for me.  i will be gagged while being tortured to quiet my screams, and will be blindfolded at various times at the discretion of my Queen.

In addition to my neck chain, during much, if not all of my imprisonment i will be bound or restrained in some way.  Often i will be tied in some sort of predicament bondage, and left to suffer for the enjoyment of my Queen.   A baby monitor with a video camera will be used to watch every move i make when my Queen is not in the room with me.  This will be for safety reasons, and also for my Queen's enjoyment as She watches me suffer for her entertainment.

Whatever happens during the weekend, i want to be sore and feel totally used and abused afterward.  I want to have marks, cuts, scratches, bruises and even mild burns on my skin to reflect the tortures i have endured.  But most of all, i want to know that my Queen's sadistic side has been temporarily satisfied, and that She achieved the sexual satisfaction She enjoys from these types of scenarios. ❤⛓🔒❤